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to come along like a lot of surgeries. yeah. there's still another one to go after death just from at least. yeah. yeah. i'll be happy with your smile with teeth back at me to do you take good care of her until then remember not the anything after midnight. right. okay. yes. can have pizza and beer up till midnight. but night after that i can deal with what i got locked up for the time. she was pretty she had the baby boy. so like i said,
somebody like me that our car, even a prison with a whole be father. hello more that very much a like, i'm kind of me good. the news, a lot of people, a lot of people news into every someone and public. a lot of people shake my head down on my desk and stuff like that. to brill definitely sees flow as role model wants to be like can in my is
everything about his day care fine is very strong ah differently so that you have it. i know that will has been through a lot of things in his younger years. i think he probably just said that he went to jail. he did sing years like that was probably just straight for oh yeah, i did. seniors in jour away for murder. yeah. they're needing him now. i was just like, well that was the past but how did you overcome. busy all day, a good job for him. honestly, he's a strong, mentally, strong to overcome all of day in such as deal with in, in come out a good person. when
he 1st moved up here. if we had, we were in a town for something pretty you the front door wide open, large. get in and out. we had no fears. pit del change pretty fast. i of devices that help me know what's going on around my place. $24.00 ship recruiting trip wires. i know somebody's been walking around my house. i put up motion detector is i'm not gonna tell you where they're at. each one gives up its own signal, so i don't house which ones get activated. ah, i can tell the sound of every car that the so she this road i know exactly who it
is without looking at. so i has how, where i am and things going around me. i put things to where i can get to him. no matter what situation developed, whether be in the military or the middle of the night. ah, i'm afraid to go to bed. i actually am at times, i think my wife afraid i haven't got a nursery. i wake up screaming. i wake up last night. dreams are horrible. i can hear myself talking. i know i'm in bed, but i can't share lou . i see things that i have to rationalize. is israel. ah, i see images on
a wall. i see people standing already. i say i'm looking at those curious chinese shape. they that occur silly santander. a my dream and again. and that's a scary part is waking up in reacting to something that isn't real how i me react to it. oh yeah. its irina is a different experience. oh, i really live this every day with
rabbi already was i 6 racial wearing down a highway fort at almost getting it where you go. i took when looked at that dog and i feel immediately load. hardy's 14 almost 15 years old, davila born was an animal you spend that much time live. oh i never had anything or you weren't so devoted to me he would give up his own life for me and i 2nd those were hard. he's going to go right up here. i got cedar tree down over here. and i'm gonna pull it up. i'm gonna make bench right here. i got this crushed marble. well done, i'm gonna freeman and cover it with
a white marble rock. this is what i've been working on. now i'm gonna paint all this lettering in, so it looks cool. i'd use my most in depth, soul searching and pondering things, cetera, or just like this. there's no phone, there's no tv. my quiet place has been most sad time reflecting on harley my family and of course that happened here but never goes away
with looking through his eyes. when i look into his eyes, i seen his father wasn't there. and when i looked, and it was a thing, his mother didn't care what to look into was as i saw, death and destruction. and when i looked into his eyes, i saw suicidal button. but before looking to was, i was sitting down in a chair and he's saying the money to get him from here to variable was his mother will be there. was this part really working? there looking to was on the scene is little kid was hurting. so i thought to myself, like, was my position because i want to give him money, but the week when twitching, he was ever kind of funny. so i say is a weed or is a crack? he said, no, i need somebody to get me there and back. i listen to was odd to say the truth, you're not sharing it look to move, the smirk like,
may i was even karen. i know the story. oh to well, when i was your age i see using myself. so i was a father to shout. i was raised by the streets. i may grow cheese sandwiches over care. see he, i was a high school dropout. i spear minimal drugs. i did pretty tough some robins with a neighborhood though. see, i was a hostile on a block. i'd been dodge from the cups until i got caught, and i just sent me a quote. now i'm back on the street to says in my la, true, i'm here to bri hope. philly's only you. he said, that's good and all was made you want to help. i. so i look and see i. when i look and see eyes, i saw image of myself in blue. 2 2 when you come back in, so community, regardless if you want to help and not people may not want to embrace you. so
forgiveness is a lot to a person and need to speak with a new they got killed at a brother. that was out mystery in that was slimy days and when to shoot me there's always whispers in getting shooting and this and that to go to what my pass me. i know he was me card there. we were friends on his screen corner growing up. he definitely wanted to murder with and it scared me to know that this guy killed disguised brother. and then it was hard talking to him and talking to him until they talked to one another when he was in the marble shop
. the name is like, you know, i talk to for minute. i was like, how give me a 2nd. i was going myself. the guy said, i'll be with you. i don't want to hear her. say, i want to talk to you. when he said that i said okay, i was just about to say, i forgive you and when they sent for gimme worries, i knew exactly what, what it was about. i know him, he wanted to kill will and it scares me even to this day. now, you know, i'm talking to you and i'm telling you from our heart. but these are 2 men that any given time. he could feel some kind of way in any given time to help people. i had a still agree with this. there are people i hated look to say are okay about what he said. that was my best friend. i don't care about what he said. that was my nephew with
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to what we've got to do is identify the threats that we have. it's crazy, even foundation, let it be an arms race group is often very dramatic development only personally and getting to resist. i don't see how that strategy will be successful, very particular time time to sit down and talk when i was around and every day i would feel different. wow. some days i will feel like i hope, you know, they are today and other days i'm like wow, they get better at it because no matter what his brother goal not knowing, look in a picture bill, i just got to kill my brother. so that's not easy test, but you hear me
when matthew died, taylor was 8 years old. so trying to figure out his emotional state and what he was actually feeling was difficult. my asked, what kind of deal does he caring about? this was always a big concern and so we spoke of it to him in terms of being an accident with for many years we didn't have any type of weapon in the whole room from shot guns, hand guns, rifle, everything, got rid of all of that stuff. is when he was about 12, he started expressing again and interested in wanting to shoot and it would come up in those moments. how do you, how do you feel?
you know, how, how do you think are you, do you think you're ready for that? and we've, we've shown a lot sense to then i believe that the mind informs the emotions and this is why i chose to shape things for tailor the way i did and, and give him the information that i did so that as he came to understand these things his feelings would follow and i believe they have ah, to me it was important that he comes through this on the other side. okay.
yeah, that's pretty much about the anesthesia. do you have any questions regarding anesthesia for me now about the surgery now? now i had total tracy now a little faith with beautiful with a thank you. c d in to do kristin, begin with is now a 47 year old woman who has suffered a gunshot wound to the mandible,
upper neck and mid face period. she has gone through numerous reconstructive surgery and currently has a mature bone graft in place. that is housed by a titanium mesh period. today she requires a placement of 5, ashton integrated pictures, removal of foreign bodies, as well as deep adding of her graft. we'd probably see $50.00 to $60.00 done shout won't, can, can, per year of which can 12 of them require major reconstruction. the or what we call impulsive financial aid else is to displace tissue or to basically remove it, blow it away if he will. a lot of individuals who come to us with guy shall want. they want to be reconstructed to what they look like 10 years ago.
i always told them reconstruction is just that it reconstructed it's not normalcy. every reconstructed tissue is never as good as the natural tissue that was lost in 2 ah, cutter fe for taken his mother's life. and i think he did that because of the person to come mentally for gaming by his again 1st and with that it was like really impactful. she knew and i was like wow,
i think i can be forgiven blah. so pay attention forgiveness in tce are pig desk and we, i mean we mainly try to do is educate our community about that. israel bonus, how you deal with it. with their said, give us empties. i able to heal yourself and still live your life in a harbor so much anger and frustration. a he, we all grew up believe in aladdin districts told us that we had to behave a certain way that we could back dale from a conflict. apologize to whatever may all. busy those things were a weakness action towards you don't deserve a reaction. sometimes you just had to say, you know what, i meant to ignore it and let it go. because you know, any given moment, the situation is been go for the day or the other week. i'm talking about lisa, when i chose to live in that same life,
to be know that people we grew up with this a bob. reach up to this, right? because stuck always his hers for giving this is really for yourself. first. we'll have to go around harbor a lot of emotion is anger, frustration. any heart, if i didn't, they can't live. my son got killed. i feel that when i'm later on me, i will not help myself accountable last bill myself account and i wasn't a good file, but that's still my boy started me to the day where you are. we are, you are out there. you must have that in yet. to have mailed it in. are you going to be, are you still not a not this last my april and a team rocket with an office on balance it with i know we and i understand what people say. you never want by your child. i guess like one of the most part is fields in the world. and then i know that that person life was to
and then they have to keep this. i gave myself a long time ago. you know, when i started the transformation, that's the reason why i wanted to change my life. so i could forgive myself. oh, we're doing ah, we never really come out with, i guess the same person. i guess all from the like. you can only help with feel alone or something like that happens and like, you're the only one out there that's feeling this way. i could feel that there's
all different types of groups and my class, andrew and jason, pretty different from other people. if i didn't know what they understood me more than the others did. so yeah, that's what i told her. i don't think that was the right decision. but make a bob mike bomb. yeah. me and tiny met in 6th grade. he was about half my height. i just nicknamed him tiny. let's make sure we need someone to shoot a gun. usually tiny, that's kind of his position and our cash, the people with
some people would say like, oh goodness your brother died. so why do you still on guns? certain you have gotten rid of those a long time ago, and my answer is no. and guns fascinate me. well, like the mechanics of on the stuff, that's always why i'm fascinated with stuff like this, like mechanical stuff like that. but my idea of guns has not changed in the fact whether i should own them or not, is changing the effect of safety. today, we're going to pull up a banana. that's my nana. because you know why not the idea of taylor being involved nail in things when he wants to go shooting. when i know that one of the experiments that they're going to do is going to involve an explosion. one of the things that are rely on this is that for years i have poured into him safety just sticking
in. perfect. i do know that tiny held the go and not knowing how to blow it in it. he has guns all the time and i trust him to be around me. i'm not like yo put that down. you're gonna kill someone because any and he's not a murderer. it was an accident. you can like put in the lip of like him, like getting blown up. i think that accident happened because that was god's timing for matthew. and i do believe that's how god intended it to happen. that's what he wo, down in taylor's, taylor's book a life we don't really know what else is going to come out of these explosions, each explosion that we do. we don't know what's gonna happen, but i trust god that whatever happens, it's gonna be his will. and his timing for us.
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