I kinda talked a little bit about my mom she's the single biggest influence in my life well my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer on Valentine's Day in 2004 hurt disease progressed extraordinarily quickly by the end of April up that same year she was near-death I was the US Attorney at the time for new jersey and I was of at a national conference and my brother called me and he said listen moms gotten significantly worse in if you want to talk to her again you need to get home now so I took the redeye flight home that night from San Diego back to Newark Airport landed got in the car drove to the hospital where she was when I got there it started to give her morphine if you've gone through this with ill relative no that's kinda the last throes there are a lot of pain in there trying to get them comfortable arm for the last moments and so she's kinda in and out of things so I safire bed for a while sugar I since you took to mean this is typical my mother should see me for a week she said what day is it ice it's Friday she's at what time is it i sat at 9:30 in the morning she said go to work okay and she reached over seagrams I have said Christopher go to work it's where you belong there's nothing left unsaid between us she was saying goodbye she's give me permission and she was right there was nothing left for me to say we had said it all we had said it all our lives there were no secrets between us I look at her I knew exactly what she meant and so a giver kiss and I said goodbye and it was the last time I spoke to work she went to a coma that afternoon and she died a few days later I know that if she were alive today and we're here for this her son in new hampshire at a town hall meeting should say two things to be the first issue it's amy is listen buddy to get too big for your britches okay the second he should say to me is in a trusting relationship Chris you owe people everything that's in your heart writer for wrong I've always given people everything I've got but I know that's why whether with the matter to me should these people trusted you with the most important job in New Jersey they can give you you need to tell the truth in response in let him know who you are what you think remember that because those are the things that guide you the help to provide you the foundation how you conduct yourself who you are how you make decisions how you react under stress and strain how you make a difference in the lives of the people you love and the people you respect that's what it's all about everybody that's what life is all about